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Spiritual Warfare

I am about to publicly step into some new territory up in here…

 

Guys, spiritual warfare is a real thing!

 

This morning, when I woke up, I IMMEDIATELY was hit with insecurities and doubts about a certain situation in my life. The whispers started a negative spin cycle for me during my morning routine.It seemed like EVERYTHING was more challenging this morning… From Jessalyn waking up at 6am and interrupting my morning routine, to not being able to find my workout pullover, and even my phone was having technical difficulties and not playing the song that I was trying to listen to for my run…

But I kept fighting through… I didn’t WANT to get up at 5am, but I did… My mind was saying, “just skip your run this morning, it really doesn’t matter,” but I ran anyway…

The choices I made this morning instead… Take Jessalyn potty and put her back to bed. Wear a cotton t-shirt instead of the “tech” material t-shirt. Listen to the song I was searching for on youtube and just not lock my phone during my run…

 

But something happened while I was running.

 

I started thinking about which things this morning actually were a spiritual attack… Sometimes I think we give Satan too much credit, or we don’t even bat an eye to realize when he is attacking.

Was my t-shirt accidentally getting put with the girls clothes an attack from Satan?

No…

Was Jessalyn waking up early from him?

No…

Was my phone’s technical issue Satan?

Doubtful… (however, I’m still holding ground that technical issues might be influenced by him, lol)

 

But you know what WAS Satan’s influence??

– The immediate thought of insecurity when I woke up.

– The thought of being annoyed at Jessalyn for waking up to pee.

– The whisper, “just give up for the day, don’t go out and run.”

 

Spiritual warfare was real this morning, for all the simple things of life… But it is the choice to not give in… to pour into scripture and read into what God says is TRUTH about you… and to “Sing in the middle of the storm, LOUDER AND LOUDER!” (Raise a Hallelujah, Bethel)

 

Am I in a storm right now?… not as bad as some of the storms I have been through. But I see what God is doing in and through our lives right now and I feel the spiritual battle trying to lodge itself into my mind and make me believe the lies…

 

But today…Today I am going to play that song on repeat, put on my oils, and pray as often as needed because my Jesus has my back.

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Talking about the Hard Things… Money.

We have been away for a little bit…

So I thought I could give a bit of a “life update”

When we first decided to take the job here in NZ, we knew it would be a stretch financially because of how much the cost of living is (for example, our tiny basement apartment is $610/week) 😱

When we did our calculations, we knew that Josh keeping his job back in the states would be pivotal… so we went directly to his boss and asked. He was on board, so we said yes!

Well, that job back in the states has shifted and now it’s looking like the income we had expected from that will be very different.

So we kinda tucked our heads into our little turtle shell and asked God to do a miracle.  God has already started that miracle, but it’s much different than we originally thought.  Finances have changed, yes… but so has our trust in God. He has been SO evident in this process.

So why the break from IG and blogging??

Honestly, I value authenticity and being able to show “real” moments with people… but I wasn’t at the place mentally or spiritually to be ok with sharing until we had a peace about it…  And honestly, sometimes that just takes time.  I also NEVER want to be the “poor pitiful us” type of people… so God had to work a few things out in us to even be able to share.

Two things that are a challenge to talk about… sex and money…

Both of those things are a part of our everyday lives…but we NEED to be talking about them (in healthy ways) in order to move past them and keep God in them…

So… that’s where we have been… now you know… now we will resume our regular scheduled programming 😬😂